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absolutely but it never really lasts.
Its out of frustration and due to at times becoming much too disheartened. Reason being is how much time and efforts and money Ive put into it and never do i see the rewards even come close to giving me something back worthy of even half the amount of those resources I have placed in it. So heck yea but as said it doesnt last long. But currently what passion I have lost is my desire to continue to put into it what i have been anymore.
I mean whats the freaking sense of all that time, efforts, and money only to not see any real return? Circumnavigating and rearranging life obs and responsibilities. Going out of my way every chance i get to try to to even just get a little better. So now i just cant justify doing all that much anymore. Its tiring, its hard work, it takes effort and patience and time and money and is a process and dedication. i went through it all to the best of my ability and resources. And im no better than I ever was. It gets so very disheartening seeing minimal at best return. And its either i have to leave the game or just accept the fact Im not one the lucky ones. Nor am I even one the semi lucky ones but instead one those avid players and effort makers that is simply on the rarer outside looking in.
I been playing for decades but never all that much and had all the excuses that i could blame it on. But the last several years I really began dedicating and making those great efforts best i could and have since exhausted all those excuses only to realize they never mattered. Im just one the more unlucky ones and its extremely disheartening. Currently i just play and try to enjoy it and have little desire left to place into it what i had been doing. Oh i still try and ill still practice and make some efforts but not like i was doing. It just isnt worth it cause the more i do the more it hurts when the results are not there. So the only answer is to do a little less. Do it when i can but not go out of my way as much. Just try to play as much as i can now and let the cards fall where they may....so be it. Im tired of feeling disheartened. So my passion to play and play well is still there but my passion (due to exhaustion of it all) to place so much into it has dwindled a lot right now.
Who knos maybe next season it comes back. I have no idea what the future holds.
Its out of frustration and due to at times becoming much too disheartened. Reason being is how much time and efforts and money Ive put into it and never do i see the rewards even come close to giving me something back worthy of even half the amount of those resources I have placed in it. So heck yea but as said it doesnt last long. But currently what passion I have lost is my desire to continue to put into it what i have been anymore.
I mean whats the freaking sense of all that time, efforts, and money only to not see any real return? Circumnavigating and rearranging life obs and responsibilities. Going out of my way every chance i get to try to to even just get a little better. So now i just cant justify doing all that much anymore. Its tiring, its hard work, it takes effort and patience and time and money and is a process and dedication. i went through it all to the best of my ability and resources. And im no better than I ever was. It gets so very disheartening seeing minimal at best return. And its either i have to leave the game or just accept the fact Im not one the lucky ones. Nor am I even one the semi lucky ones but instead one those avid players and effort makers that is simply on the rarer outside looking in.
I been playing for decades but never all that much and had all the excuses that i could blame it on. But the last several years I really began dedicating and making those great efforts best i could and have since exhausted all those excuses only to realize they never mattered. Im just one the more unlucky ones and its extremely disheartening. Currently i just play and try to enjoy it and have little desire left to place into it what i had been doing. Oh i still try and ill still practice and make some efforts but not like i was doing. It just isnt worth it cause the more i do the more it hurts when the results are not there. So the only answer is to do a little less. Do it when i can but not go out of my way as much. Just try to play as much as i can now and let the cards fall where they may....so be it. Im tired of feeling disheartened. So my passion to play and play well is still there but my passion (due to exhaustion of it all) to place so much into it has dwindled a lot right now.
Who knos maybe next season it comes back. I have no idea what the future holds.
What in the actual #$^%$
