I just learned today that one of my friends passed - and I learned she took her own life. I'm stunned and confused and trying to process - I know everyone says this when someone passes, but she was SO beautiful. And she was smart and successful and classy and really together. A happy and social girl with a law degree, good job she seemed to like, active dating life, and friends who loved her. I admired her SO much, she was like a role model to me. Basically, not the depressed sad person hiding in their basement that you imagine when you think about suicide.
I'm at such a loss at comprehending this. I feel so guilty since I was just thinking of her and wanting to call her, but the last time we spoke wasn't the best of terms (she canceled some plans last minute), I invited her out to my birthday (didn't hear back) and I sent her a message on her birthday (that she didn't respond to), so I figured the ball was in her court when for when she wanted to talk to me. Instead of pushing and being a good friend I let it go, but now I'm thinking that was just the crappiest decision and you shouldn't let some disappointments get between you and the people you love.
I'm not sure the point of this message...maybe someone has seen this already and can speak to it better than I can. But:
Tell your friends and loved ones today that you love them. Now. Don't wait a couple days to put in the call. And don't assume someone is happy and all together because they put on a happy face. Don't be too busy to show some .
I'm at such a loss at comprehending this. I feel so guilty since I was just thinking of her and wanting to call her, but the last time we spoke wasn't the best of terms (she canceled some plans last minute), I invited her out to my birthday (didn't hear back) and I sent her a message on her birthday (that she didn't respond to), so I figured the ball was in her court when for when she wanted to talk to me. Instead of pushing and being a good friend I let it go, but now I'm thinking that was just the crappiest decision and you shouldn't let some disappointments get between you and the people you love.
I'm not sure the point of this message...maybe someone has seen this already and can speak to it better than I can. But:
Tell your friends and loved ones today that you love them. Now. Don't wait a couple days to put in the call. And don't assume someone is happy and all together because they put on a happy face. Don't be too busy to show some .